Sunday, December 16, 2007

"the story" - brandi carlile

from the story
written by phil hanseroth

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do
I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

the first time i heard this song was as a free itunes song! it immediately got a hold of me and never let go. brandi's voice is just amazing and the fact that she has that voice crack at the end even more emotion. the lyrics in this song remind me of an old couple and the love they have for each other. they have been through so much in their life together and know each other like no one else does. it's about soul mates.

Monday, December 10, 2007

"my immortal" - evanescence

from fallen

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
but if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have...all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face, it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice, it's chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have...all of me
all of me
all of me
all...

this is such a beautiful song. it's about death and coming to terms with someone who passes on. their memory is so near and you cannot stop thinking about them. it is so painful and time does not really help much. it is a very slow process that doesn't seem to really change how you feel. when you lose someone you love it just hurts so much and you feel alone. on one hand you want to keep going with your life but losing this person is so hurtful that you cannot. this song just really puts all the emotions you feel into one song, it's so haunting and sad. i listen to it over and over because even though it makes me feel sad, i already do and somehow it helps.

"jesus are you real" - mason jennings

from boneclouds

Jesus are you real,
did we make you up
is salvation what you want
or is faith enough
do you know where I’m bound
you know who I am
are you just a word I use
when I don't understand

Standing like a statue in the sea
in a little truck stop in Tennessee
and bombs are crashing down in waves
on a giant TV screen
and I am struck I cannot move
to make it stop what can I do
people are dying in their beds
while this flag flies over our heads

Jesus are you stronger than a loaded gun
I’m beginning to believe you're not the only one
strong enough to show your love
strong enough to give
strong enough to go through hell
strong enough to live

and all night long I sat with you
in a darkened hospital room
and nurses checked in by the hour
I was made aware of a higher power
and how this fragile life we live
is not ours to keep but ours to give,
what in the world am I gonna do
if anything should happen to you

*refrain
and all i do is doubt you god
all i do is love you god
all i do is question you
what else can i do
this world was never solid ground
the past is coming back around
all i do is search for you,

what else can i do?
and when i say i search for you
i mean i search for peace
i search for hope
i search for love
and one day for release

jesus my life does not feel the same
new things happen everyday
things i can't explain
but i am not a man of faith
i'm a man of truth
but is this feeling in my heart
is this feeling proof

when you do not know, you know
when you know, you do not know
and when you think you do, you die
and when you do not think, you grow
are we left here in the dark
or are we left here in the light
it seems to me that both are true
and its up to us to know what’s right

And all I do is doubt you God
All is do is love you God
All I do is question you
What else can I do
This world was never solid ground
Religion can not help me now
All I do is search for you
What else can I do
And when I say I search for you
I mean I search for peace
I search for hope I search for love
And one day for release

God give me strength to accept the things
that i just can not know
and even when i lose control i will not let you go

I love mason jennings' music. It is so full of energy and emotion. This song to me is about questioning God and religion in general. If you aren't going to question everything, what is the point of living? Why go through it blindly? Just because you question does not mean you don't believe or that your belief is any weaker, maybe the opposite. The fact that you still have faith after questioning can only make you stronger. Things go wrong and you wonder why things happen. Everything has to happen for a reason and no one has control but if God does then why does he let bad things happen? I think that is a hard question to answer. we as people/humans are given one life and what you make of it is up to you. whether you believe in god and the afterlife or not, that is not going to change your existence on earth. eventually you die. You really don't know what's going to happen in life except that one thing. you can't really control when and how it happens.